a good sorry mood

Last night…ok…maybe early this morning…2:00 am would be probably morning…right?! I was studying my scriptures and came upon Jacob 4:18:

Behold, my beloved brethren, I will unfold this mystery unto you; if I do not, by any means, get shaken from my firmness in the Spirit, and stumble because of my over anxiety for you.

For some reason, the word “anxiety” struck me.  I looked up the word  and found the definition to be very interesting.  It means “a relatively permanent state of worry and nervousness occurring in a variety of mental disorders.”  As I pondered over this particular scripture and word, I wondered why I have been in the mood that I have been in lately.  I have so many thoughts swimming around in my head and so many things that are creating a not so enjoyable mood in the life of Michelle Lynn Gren.

Anyway, I went back to studying my scriptures, writing down thoughts, looking up quotes  and came upon something that gave me some sort of relief.    It was a quote by Pres. Boyd K. Packer.  He stated,

“In this school environment, you are not immune from pressures which relate to schoolwork—tensions and problems—and the long list of attendant emotionally-oriented difficulties and disorders---insecurity, worry, stress, confusion, dependency, suspicion, withdrawal, fear…If you happen to hit a good sorry mood once in a while, relax and enjoy it---it is a good sign that you are normal.  It is all right to worry about things now and again, I suppose, but when you get worried about being worried, that is when you are getting off track.” ~Boyd K. Packer

I loved the part where he said, “…If you happen to hit a good sorry mood once in a while, relax and enjoy it---it is a good sign that you are normal.”  YES, I am glad that I am NORMAL.  I might be in a good sorry mood, but I know that I am normal and not suffering from mental disorders.   

~Michelle